“I sensed doom approaching. He finally succeeded in pulling down my shorts, turned me over with my face pressed down against the bed and his hand covering my mouth. I thought I could overcome him for the last time while he turned me but it was as if I were an ant, and he, a lion.
I was broken to core when he whispered “I want you to be all mine”. “Is that how people make others their all-time partners?” I asked myself. I got tired of struggling. I had lost every available strength to fight back so I laid there with tears raining down my face as he went into me.
After he had drained my dignity, I was pissed and sober that I couldn’t watch him in the eye. He was a beast in my mind. He then said he was sorry. I just didn’t understand how he could take advantage of me one moment, and be remorseful in the next. He fell asleep but I couldn’t. I was awake the whole night feeling tattered and drained from head-to-toe.
I only came to keep him company since he was broken but I ended up broken than I earlier thought he was. I numerously ask myself “What have I done to myself” throughout the night in tears. I left the room the next morning feeling torn, deeply confused in myself and weak in spirit. I couldn’t erode the incident from my mind.”
“But you didn’t report to anyone” I asked.
“Haha… You’re kidding right? Who would have believed me? And he would have denied. And who was I going to tell. There was nobody to talk to.” she replied.
“And he didn’t use a condom? Did you fear of any STI? (Sexually Transmitted Infections)” I asked
“Nope he didn’t. And the thought of STI didn’t even come to mind; I was disappointed and broken. That’s all” she replied
“I believe it resulted in the possibility of you becoming pregnant right?” I asked
“I took pills” she replied
“Whew! I weak. I think that’s enough” I said
“You sure? Why?” she asked
“It’s a heavy story” I replied
“You sure that’s all you want to know?” she asked
“Let me breath small” I replied
“Did the pills work? Did he suggest you take them or you did?” I asked
“Unfortunately, the pills didn’t work because I took it late. Apparently, I was ovulating. And I decided to take it, looking at the consequences” she replied
“So what was the next option you took?” I asked
“I thought everything was fine till I missed my period in the next month. I tested and realized I was pregnant. My world came to stand-still. Eii I’m going to have this baby. Eii what is my family going to do. My friends, colleagues at work. Hmmm. I was scared. After an attempt to terminate it with a drug he gave me, I bled heavily for three months. It went through hell. I was always confused at work, my education was at risk. Tears is what draws down my cheek anytime I reminisce. On the contrary, it made me stronger and wiser and I wouldn’t settle for less.” She replied.
“So have you overcome it now?” I asked
“I do believe my story is for someone out there who could fall victim to this act. I wouldn’t say I have overcome it but I try to forget it and make my future better” she replied
“Hmm, I don’t know what to say” I said
“Hehe I know right. Hey, let me not steal your sleep time okay. And make sure you write this story well. Let me be the first to read okay. As for you, I know what you’re capable of. Lol (Laughed out loud)”
“Haha. Sorry if this brought tears to your eyes” I said
“Don’t worry. It’s life. Goodnight” she replied
“Goodnight” I said
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